Sacred Light

Truth is available only to those who have the courage to question whatever they have been taught.  ~ Author Unknown Metanoia is a Greek word for repent. Meta means after, beyond, or change; but, not just any kind of change. This change is an unmistakable transformation. Noia basically means mind. Therefore, in the simplest definition of Metanoia, it means to change your mind. According to the Greeks, repentance means to dramatically change your mind. It is really even deeper than that. Metanoia is much more than giving up a sinful habit. It is like the change of a caterpillar into a butterfly. This change is essential. Metanoia implies a radical metamorphosis where your very being is transformed. Metanoia is a shift in vision giving new meaning to your world. Metanoia is a profound, spiritual revision. That is the kind of repentance I believe in doing. I repent not to appease a judging God, but to discover a profound new way of living Life and viewing the world.  Metanoia...

Flowers from my family after my back surgery, New Years Eve, 2010. (Read my post Dark Night of the Soul part 1 to get the full story.) I was the one that asked for a divorce. It was a Friday again. Exactly one month had gone by since that dark night in December when I broke. I didn’t see how we could fix our differences, especially now. Money and religion were the two main issues. Those seemed irreparable and unsolvable. That dark, devastating,   disastrous day our kids were downstairs crying, sent there while we tried to come to terms with my request. Alex came home that weekend, unexpectedly; but, it was a good thing for the other children to have him there. Our family was disbanding. We might as well have everyone present to witness the entire destruction. I doubt anyone of them will ever forget that night. It was truly dreadful.                What do Mormons do when their marriage falls apart? They call the bishop. That’s wha...

December 24, 2010,  5 days before back surgery. Friday, December 17 th , 2010 was the beginning of my ‘Dark Night of the Soul’. A true ‘Dark Night of the Soul’ is not a minor challenge. It is a deeply, meaningful experience. You don’t choose a dark night. It is given to you. There are many gifts hidden in that darkness. Your job is to find them. ‘A Dark Night of the Soul’ brings transformation. It is a defining moment. You were one way before that experience. You are another way after it. It leaves you forever altered. It pushes you to the edge of what you thought you were capable of handling. It forces you to rely on something beyond yourself to get through it. That is how I view a ‘Dark Night of the Soul’. That is how I view what happened to me in those eight, long, intense weeks from December 17 th , 2010 to February 17 th , 2011. I can clearly see that Friday night in December that I broke. I can see my room, where I was sitting, where Randy stood....