Sacred Light

I love the work of Osho! He was a mystic, a guru, and a spiritual teacher born in India. In one of Osho’s YouTube video, on the multiple meanings of the word fuck, he says, “One of the most interesting words in the English language today is the word ‘fuck’. It is a magical word; just by its sound it can describe pain, pleasure, hate, and love. In language it falls into many grammatical categories. It can be used as a verb, both transitive and intransitive: ‘John fucked Mary’, and ‘Mary was fucked by John’, and as a noun: ‘Mary is a fine fuck’. It can be used as an adjective: ‘Mary is fucking beautiful’. As you can see there are not many words with the versatility of ‘fuck’.” Osho points out that in addition to the sexual meaning of the word there are also the following uses: “ignorance: ‘fucked if I know’; trouble: ‘I guess I’m fucked now!’; aggression: ‘Fuck you!’; suspicion: ‘What the fuck are you doing?’; enjoyment: ‘I had a fucking good time!’; request: ‘Get the fuck out of here!...

The greatest fear in the world is of the opinion of others, and the moment you are unafraid of the crowd, you are no longer a sheep, you become a lion. A great roar arises in your heart, the roar of freedom ~ Osho (9/11/2016, my birthday, I am visiting my dad for the first time in a few weeks due to my trip to AZ, and his week long stay in the hospital. He was released on my birthday; what a gift! My father had been receiving cancer treatments for a very rare type of cancer since June 29th. He was merely a shadow of the father I knew and loved. Cancer treatments killed my dad. They robbed his memory, stole his ability to care for himself, and made him do things he never would have done in his normal mind. In this picture, I see the blank look in my fathers eyes. He is gone. His body was still with us, but his mind was lost.) My dad and I have always had a very close relationship. Therefore, my leaving the church and his way of believing behind was exceptionally hard on h...

You’re mourning the loss of what you thought your life was going to be. Let it go. Things don’t always work out as you planned; that’s not necessarily bad. Things have a way of working out anyway.  ~ Frasier Crane It was July of 2007 when I learned I was pregnant again. I knew I was pregnant with my daughter, whom I had dreamed about off and on for four years. Ever since we had moved to Mendon, UT, I had dreamed about her. I knew she would have beautiful brunette hair, large loving eyes, and a contagious, radiant smile. The day I chose to tell Randy about the pregnancy is one we will never forget. I told him on his birthday, his 40 th birthday. Randy didn’t think this was good news like I did. Later, Alex called him from a camp he was working at that summer, called camp Fire Walker. After telling his dad happy birthday, Alex broke the news that our Suburban, the only vehicle that could hold our entire family, had broken down. It wasn’t going anywhere ever again. I...

In 1 Peter 2:9 it says, “But, ye are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a peculiar people …” Mormons believe that they are this ‘chosen generation’ spoken of in the bible. And, Mormons often are referred to as a ‘peculiar people’ for good reasons. Typically, Mormons wear this title as a badge of honor. In their eyes, they are surely God’s chosen people so it’s all right that they are strange and atypical; being in the world, but not of it. However, nothing is more peculiar about the Mormons than their underwear; except for, maybe, the reasons they wear this unusual underwear in the first place. The initiatory ceremony is the first ritual done in the LDS temple. It is literally an initiation into the greater secrets of the Mormon Church. By going through the temple in general, you are being initiated into a deeper, holier level of Mormonism. During this initiatory ritual, you are washed and anointed, ‘initiated’, so that you can wear the special protec...